the new season...

it was such a beautiful day today! the sun was so bright and warm. it is great for the spirit when you get those first signs of winter's demise. it's like in narnia when they see grass for the first time again, and the hear the whispers of aslan's return; everyone is thinking 'ha ha! the white witch is fucked!' it was still quite cold, but you feel and see the subtle signs of new life everywhere. it influences your coversations too. tyler and i were walking through hyde park this afternoon and discussing all things cool. obviously... we were dicussing the future - our's and the world's. we spoke of aspirations, dreams, goals, etc. we also discussed the role of death and loss, and its importance in making us stronger, sharper, and more understanding. we both believe that it is necessary to experience these the darker sides of life in order for us to truly appreciate the things we love and hold dear. if it were summer all of the time it would become mundane. it's after the cold, wet, grey, lifeless winter that we truly appreciate the spring and summer. the reason today was so glorious was because i hadn't experienced a day like for weeks. we were following only the paths that allowed us to be showered in sunshine... it was a shower too. it was cleansing and refreshing. i am really looking forward to this year. in my blog about autumn a few months ago, i spoke of entering the winter and using the time to learn new tricks and sharpen parts of yourself that needed it. well, it's almost showtime... the new season is about to get under way... are you ready?

yes...

i watched 'yes' by sally potter last night. it is amazing... i cannot put into words how beautiful and honest it is. i am not going to tell you about the film, and don't read to much on the website either. it is better to be completely surprised... so please, for your own sake, get a copy asap. this is a work of art that is completely necessary in your life... if you don't see it you are missing the perfect tonic for all of this chaos around us at present. enjoy....
p.s. thanks to the wonderful kat drew for finding this. x

dreams...

something very strange happened today. well, it started a few nights ago actually. i had this dream a few nights ago in which i went to the almeida theatre in islington. basically, i went in and was speaking to someone. i explained that i was studying creative writing and that i really wanted to work in a theatre to immerse myself completely in what i love. there was no conclusion to this dream. it was one of several that night. the next morning i got online and stored my dreams from the night before like i do most mornings. there are two other friends that collectively do this with me. it's great to look back at them. i highly recommend it. since then i have been meaning to look at the almeida's website to see if there were any jobs, but not got around to it. today, i went on the site. after looking around it for a while i found a tab for projects. in this section there was something called the WRITE project. i found out that this is a project that invites writers to send in two pages of script to be looked at. they will then pick a few winners who get to write with professional writers at the theatre. i thought, "this is amazing!?!" so, i downloaded the form, and was reading over the project again, when i came to the deadline... i was gutted! then i remembered the dream... so, i manically looked back at my dreams, and sure enough, the dream about the almeida was the night before the deadline... january 31st, 2006... i don't really know what i think about all of this. it was so specific and lucid?!? i guess my lesson is that if you have specific signs then you must follow them immediately - no hestitation. it's not the end of the world as i'm sure they will do something similar soon, but it is context with my one goal this year - to be more focused and productive. ok. two goals... no time for playing. the fact that i had the dream i believe means that i'm in the right place, but i need to pick up the pace a bit. this also has more resonance because i have just finished the wind-up bird chronicle by haruki murakami which deals with that blurred area between dreams and 'reality', and how closely the two are linked. he speaks a lot about how both worlds affect our existence in the end. carpe diem...