hello autumn!

autumn has arrived once again... a lot of people don't like autumn, or maybe don't get it. maybe i'm 'strange', but i love it. i love the brisk winds and the cold rain and the leaves changing colour. the rain especially... it has such a cleansing effect. i love running in the rain! the autumn is a time for parts of you to die and wither away, but also to hibernate and sit and read and ponder and learn new things. it's like sowing the seeds of the new sides of you that will flourish and flower in the spring and shine in the summer. it feels quite natural to me to reflect the seasonal changes in my own life, and to follow the rhythms of mother nature. so it with great pleasure that i welcome autumn back for another year...

torn soul...

today has been a strange day. it's funny how life, just when you think you have a grip - ever so slight - on your life, reality, etc. you're reminded how little you know and little control you really have. in my mind it is all quite clear. finally. i think 'this is it. i know what i'm doing, and who i am' and then some dark subconscious thought comes to the surface and shatters all those things you were working towards. it's a fine line between concentrating on the beauty, and dealing with the darkness... why? we long and search for those oasis' of happiness and balance, which seem to be so elusive. i want to do sooo much, but cannot work out whether the stumbling block is me or the world i live in.... so, the struggle continues....
p.s. this is my first blog and i dedicate it to miss corina guidi - my star of the south...